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On Being Kind to Yourself During Quarantine

As I ran up Green street toward the Presidio, I felt the exhaustion in my limbs and in my lungs. My pace had slowed to what was almost a walk, but I wanted to make it up the hill without stopping. Unfortunately, as I reached the halfway point, I felt myself give up. I stopped, placed my hands on my knees, and tried to catch my breath. Looking up at the distance to the top of the hill, I felt ashamed and aggravated at myself. Why couldn’t I have just pushed myself a little harder? Today, I wanted to write about a strange side effect that has occurred during quarantine: disappointment.

Quarantine diaries - dealing with panic attacks & COVID19 scares

In this post, I wanted to talk a bit more about those other feelings. In particular, how the fear took over my body and the resulting emotional terror that I went through this past week. There are a couple of reasons why I’ve decided to talk about it. First, because I think it will help me, mentally. Secondly, because if anyone else is going through this, I hope it will help them as well.

What I’m writing about in this post is my own personal experience with paranoia around COVID-19 since my dad’s hospitalization, what that paranoia led to, and then steps that I found extremely helpful for dealing with that paranoia.