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Quarantine Diaries - Survivor's guilt

Quarantine Diaries - Survivor's guilt

Kellen McKillop
musings

Here’s something they don’t tell you.

After having someone you love survive COVID-19, the relief you feel isn’t as simple as just relief.

You’ve spent the last however many days huddled in uncertainty. Your hands ache from being clenched in prayer—prayer to anything that is sacred in this world. You’re weary from nights spent tossing and turning, unable to sleep with your heart pounding in your chest, wondering what the next moment will bring. You’ve cried yourself into dehydration. You’re exhausted and nerves are on end. And then…

And then he survives and you’re flooded with relief. You can finally relax.

But with that relief comes other emotions.

Namely, guilt.

Quarantine Day 5 - 3 Things I've Learned About Hearing a Loved Ones in the ICU

Quarantine Day 5 - 3 Things I've Learned About Hearing a Loved Ones in the ICU

Kellen McKillop
musings

Day five. Today was not a good day.

I almost didn’t write this post. It’s 11:46 PM and I’m exhausted. I want to go fall asleep or rather wake up from this nightmare. But I have to. Because I know that there are other people out there who are alone. Who are frightened. Who are angry. Who are scared. And who are so lonely they feel like someone has just punched a hole through them.