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Apr 12

Apr 12 Quarantine diaries - dealing with panic attacks & COVID19 scares

In this post, I wanted to talk a bit more about those other feelings. In particular, how the fear took over my body and the resulting emotional terror that I went through this past week. There are a couple of reasons why I’ve decided to talk about it. First, because I think it will help me, mentally. Secondly, because if anyone else is going through this, I hope it will help them as well.

What I’m writing about in this post is my own personal experience with paranoia around COVID-19 since my dad’s hospitalization, what that paranoia led to, and then steps that I found extremely helpful for dealing with that paranoia.

Mar 26

Mar 26 Quarantine Diaries Day 7/8: The Dichotomy of Emotions with COVID-19

Kellen McKillop

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Anyway, today I thought I’d write something a little different. Instead of a log of the day, I’ll write about some of the things I’ve been going through while my dad is in the ICU. From contradictory emotions to spirituality to frustrations, I’m going to try my best to describe what it’s been like here.

Mar 22

Mar 22 Quarantine Diaries Day 6: Guilt & the only thing that helps

Kellen McKillop

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Every morning and every evening, we send my dad a text as a family. My mom starts the thread and expresses more true emotions than I’ve heard from her before. My brother is usually next and I’m last. Our messages are filled with positivity and love, telling him how much we need him. I always try to include that he’s doing such a good job.

Mar 20

Mar 20 Quarantine Day 5 - 3 Things I've Learned About Hearing a Loved Ones in the ICU

Kellen McKillop

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Day five. Today was not a good day.

I almost didn’t write this post. It’s 11:46 PM and I’m exhausted. I want to go fall asleep or rather wake up from this nightmare. But I have to. Because I know that there are other people out there who are alone. Who are frightened. Who are angry. Who are scared. And who are so lonely they feel like someone has just punched a hole through them.

Hi.