All tagged COVID19 survivor

Quarantine Diaries: On Prayer (whatever that may be)

However, some are lucky enough to find that perfect flow of energy. That flow of energy leading to the place of goodness and light. Following that flow leads them to success (not monetary, necessarily, but happiness and contentment and joy in life). What if prayer is simply a form of tuning into this energy? Maybe meditation, yoga, running, hiking, reading a good book, coding a new experience, sleeping, or even dancing are all prayer. Maybe when we find that “flow” state that so many self-help gurus talk about, we’re actually in a state of prayer.

Quarantine Diaries - Survivor's guilt

Here’s something they don’t tell you.

After having someone you love survive COVID-19, the relief you feel isn’t as simple as just relief.

You’ve spent the last however many days huddled in uncertainty. Your hands ache from being clenched in prayer—prayer to anything that is sacred in this world. You’re weary from nights spent tossing and turning, unable to sleep with your heart pounding in your chest, wondering what the next moment will bring. You’ve cried yourself into dehydration. You’re exhausted and nerves are on end. And then…

And then he survives and you’re flooded with relief. You can finally relax.

But with that relief comes other emotions.

Namely, guilt.